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If I posted the pictures that I took of Bean today, one would think that we had the best day ever and I have such a sweet baby. Here is the truth, today was hard, and Bean can be sweet when she wants to be. Today wasn't one of those days (for the most part). A day like today prompted crying, a timeout and a beer...all of those were for me. Very few people prepare you for what it's really going to be like to be a mom, and then boom you're living it.
I almost had a complete breakdown while driving today as my child screamed in the backseat. I knew the only thing I could do was reach out to one of my best friends to help me out. Very rarely do people tell the world of social media how much of a hot mess their child was that day but I knew that my friend would keep it real for me. When you are out in public and your child pitches a fit for no good reason (at least not to you) and other people stare and make comments, it makes you feel like there is not only something wrong with you, but something wrong with your child. Don't stand there and act like you haven't gone through this or witnessed it before, I call bullshit.
Today my child screamed when she didn't get what she wanted, she screamed when I tried to help her, she screamed when we took her out of the swing, she screamed when we took her out of the corn play thing, she screamed when we put her in the car. Not only does she scream, but she makes her body go limp so you can't really even pick her up, it's like carrying dead weight. This has been our new normal, at least one tantrum a day. My anxiety spikes and I'm like, 'What the fuck, why is my child the only one who acts like this?' Is that true? Is she the only baby in the whole world who acts a fool? Of course not, but it often feels like that.
Stefan and I both get down on ourselves and feel terrible in the moment. It's so hard to be a human, and then you try to raise a human and it all goes bananas. Instead of focusing on the times that she is happy and amazing, I am putting my focus on her inability to sit still and her temporary tantrums. I know that I need to divert my attention on the positive, but it is sooo hard to do.
If you feel alone, like you're the only one experiencing the craziness of life with a toddler, please talk about it! I promise you that you are not the only one. Reach out to a friend like I did and they will reassure you that, "Toddlers are ridiculously irrational!" You are doing enough, you are good enough, you are ENOUGH. Life is already hard, don't make it harder by beating yourself up.
Also, try not to get too caught up in the pictures you see other people posting on facebook or Instagram. Below is the picture of Bean and I from today, you would never know from looking at that picture that a few hours later I would be crying hysterically trying to nap on a bed without any sheets.
I almost had a complete breakdown while driving today as my child screamed in the backseat. I knew the only thing I could do was reach out to one of my best friends to help me out. Very rarely do people tell the world of social media how much of a hot mess their child was that day but I knew that my friend would keep it real for me. When you are out in public and your child pitches a fit for no good reason (at least not to you) and other people stare and make comments, it makes you feel like there is not only something wrong with you, but something wrong with your child. Don't stand there and act like you haven't gone through this or witnessed it before, I call bullshit.
Today my child screamed when she didn't get what she wanted, she screamed when I tried to help her, she screamed when we took her out of the swing, she screamed when we took her out of the corn play thing, she screamed when we put her in the car. Not only does she scream, but she makes her body go limp so you can't really even pick her up, it's like carrying dead weight. This has been our new normal, at least one tantrum a day. My anxiety spikes and I'm like, 'What the fuck, why is my child the only one who acts like this?' Is that true? Is she the only baby in the whole world who acts a fool? Of course not, but it often feels like that.
Stefan and I both get down on ourselves and feel terrible in the moment. It's so hard to be a human, and then you try to raise a human and it all goes bananas. Instead of focusing on the times that she is happy and amazing, I am putting my focus on her inability to sit still and her temporary tantrums. I know that I need to divert my attention on the positive, but it is sooo hard to do.
If you feel alone, like you're the only one experiencing the craziness of life with a toddler, please talk about it! I promise you that you are not the only one. Reach out to a friend like I did and they will reassure you that, "Toddlers are ridiculously irrational!" You are doing enough, you are good enough, you are ENOUGH. Life is already hard, don't make it harder by beating yourself up.
Also, try not to get too caught up in the pictures you see other people posting on facebook or Instagram. Below is the picture of Bean and I from today, you would never know from looking at that picture that a few hours later I would be crying hysterically trying to nap on a bed without any sheets.
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