F....ert

So many ideas are running around and I cannot nail one down...so here is a list of things (in no particular order) that I am thinking.

1.  We live in a society that teaches us to suppress our emotions.  When people decide to break the mold and express themselves, they are greeted with discomfort and a change of subject.  Don't stress this.  Express yourself.  I'm all for any awkward interaction.  

2.  We need to be selfish in this life.  At the end of the day, we have ourselves.  Sure, we are surrounded by people that love and care about us, but you are your number one.  Do something for yourself everyday.  Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself and give yourself grace. 

3.  Fueling your body, fuels ambition.  When I am deep in my eating disorder, my main goal in life is to get through the day. I put all of my focus on restricting or purging.  When I am successful at one or both I feel accomplished.  I go to bed, sigh with relief that I did it, and wait to start over again the next day.  It's a day to day lifestyle.  When I am nourished, I find myself feeling more hopeful and taking time to ask myself, what do I really want out of life.  I have put aside some of my dreams with thoughts like, 'I'm not good enough' and 'Why would I ever be successful?'...when I'm nourished, the only question I ask is, 'Why not?'

4.  Despite the effort you put in into some relationships the effort given back is often not reciprocated.  If it makes you feel good to feed a relationship, continuously go out of your way for others, then do it....but just realize you may be disappointed.

5.  Carbs are good...they feed your brain...your brain is important...if you don't understand this, I'm sorry.

6.  You can't save people if they don't want you to.  You CAN however, save yourself.

7. Life is pretty beautiful if you give it a chance.




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